Accountibility

As I said in my first post that this blog is to help keep me accountable. Well, it is the first week and I already need a swift kick in the butt. Lets recap--

I did not complete the C25K workout Saturday as I said I was going to. Instead, we ordered pizza and Dan came home from the store with Lays BBQ potato chips and Pepsi. I said, ok but tomorrow IS the day of change.

Sunday came, I did well. I had my one cup of soda that I am allowing myself to have, I ate smaller portions and I was getting excited. I ventured out to do my workout and it was not easy at all. I ran 5 minutes of the 20 minute workout. Which really for someone who has not worked out in over a year and has two bum feet wasn't too bad. I walked the rest of the workout and then a little extra.

Monday, I was on a roll. I walked 2 miles on my lunch, ate well and was excited. Went home from work, stepped on the scale and gained 2 pounds since Saturday. We did however go for a little family walk. From now on I will stick to the 1 time a week weigh-in.

And then I fell off the train. Yesterday and today have been a hot mess. Here is where the accountability needs to come back to play. I think I need to also use this blog as my food journal so I see what I am doing to myself. Now, I am not trying to become a crazy junk-food Nazi and diet nut. No, I am more looking into portion control, better decisions (apple instead of chips, water instead of pop) that doesn't mean giving up what I love just consuming less. That coupled with exercise is the goal at hand here.

Changes

This blog is going to help make me accountable for the changes I am wanting to make, mainly, my weight but also my deisre to be a better wife, mother and person. This has been a long time struggle and I am out of excuses. I once was a 16 year old weighing in at 103. What happened? I will tell you what happened, I stopped playing sports and I let myself go. That was the starting point anyways. When I graduated from high school ten years ago I was a healthy 130 and was happy. I wasn't overly thin but looked what I thought was good. I felt good. I look back at pictures and was happy. Then I went to college, gained a few pounds and failed a few diets. I lost all direction in my life. I failed out mainly because I didn't care and didn't know what I wanted to do. I now know that was only partly correct. Yes, I failed out but it wasn't because I didn't know what I wanted to do it was because I wasn't worth it. Or so I thought, 9 years later I am finally feeling like I AM WORTH IT!!! I am not going to post my whole life story, not yet anyways. My other goal for this blog is to help me put it all together and help me understand what I have gone through and how I can move forward.

Anyways, in my 5 years of marriage I have gained a whopping 31.5 lbs. However, in the 5 years prior to that I gained 52 lbs which my calculations makes that 83.5 lbs gain since I graduated high school. Oy. My goal is to take that 83.5 weight gain right back off and never look back. My starting goal is to get to 200. I have 13.5 lbs to get there but it is totally doable!!

Another side goal of mine is to eventually run a half marathon. To get there I am starting with training for a 5K. I was introduced to C25K (Couch-to-5k) a 9 week program to running a 5k. I am going to start tonight. Stay tuned for how this goes....